So So MUCH to be Thankful for!

We have so many blessings that have been bestowed upon us.

Not just this year, or the past few weeks, but always.

Unfortunately, it sometimes takes struggles to really see the blessings.

This year, we have a heightened sense of Thankfulness.

We are praying that it becomes our way of life- 

to be thankful in EVERYTHING and in  EVERY CIRCUMSTANCE!

Here are a few pictures of our very low key day at home with our little family!

Sterling in her

"Gobble til you Wobble" shirt.

Our Healthy kids-so thankful

The Fam

Our two Girls

Well, I must say that we have the two cutest girls ever!

Zoey thinks Sterling is great. She wants to snuggle up to her.

Zoey like to lick the baby on the head and then plop down

 right next to her for a little nap.

We, of course love it and think they are just the cutest,

 and right about the same size too!

It won't be long until that poor little dog is being dressed

up and shoved into a toy stroller like she is Sterling's own little baby.

Huntin'

So after a long two weeks at the hospital, I convinced Randy-

which wasn't too hard- to go hunting last Saturday. Bless his heart, he had spent about 15 hours a day at the side of Sterling's bed and he needed a 

break. He loaded up Chandler, his Dad, and a couple of friends and off to 

the lease they went. (at 2:30 in the morning-to sit in the dark, I don't

understand this silly "sport" but to each his own.)

They had a great day together and caught up on a nap or two in the stand.

The best part was Chandler shooting not just his first deer, but he got TWO!

The phone call from him was hilarious- I am the first one he called-sheer joy.

(again, I do not understand why killing Bambi is fun-again, to each his own)

He was so excited and I think that Randy may have been a little 

more thrilled than Chandler. Chandler is now hooked-as long as he doesn't 

have to clean them. 

Here are a few pics from their day-the last one is a little yuck, so if

dead Bambi bothers you, skip the pictures.

Randy, Chandler, and Will

Chandler, getting ready to hunt.

One of his two prizes-so exciting

We Are Outta Here!!!!!

The day has finally come! 

Actually, we are leaving Cooks Childrens Hospital at least a week earlier

than anticipated.  Sterling is doing so great and so far ahead of the doctors expectations

that she has been released this morning!!! They had told us that they would have us spend the night this weekend and then go home

....but my husband did a little sweet talking,

and they let us out of the overnight stay and we are on our way home!

This is a day long awaited for and prayed for even more-

the only reason that we are able to go home is with out a doubt, 

because of the prayers that were lifted on behalf of our family.

We are so grateful for the care and love that has been given

 to our daughter at Cook's. The entire staff, from the doctors and nurses  to 

the security and maintenance, made our 2 week stay as comfortable

as possible. We have also been so touched by the other families that have been 

there at the same time. They have encouraged, supported, and prayed for us in a way

that only another parent that is dealing with such a scary thing can do. 

Thank you thank you!

On our way out, we were sure to thank them all & with as much kindness that we could muster, told them that we hoped that we never see them again.  :)

They said the same thing.

My going home hat-isn't it ridiculous and fabulous all at the same time?!

Happy Happy Day!

First time in the car

We were greeted by proud big brother at the front door! 

Home has never felt so good!

No Tubes & a Test!

Our girl has the last tube out of her tiny little body!!!

She has been eating like a champ, so the feeding tube is o longer needed! 

So out it came this afternoon-she was not a big fan, I am sure just removing that

dang medical tape (which hurts me) off her sweet baby skin really hurt.

But- it is off, she looks BEAUTIFUL with out all that mess on her face. 

She is just what we dreamed she would be.

So, now we are working on our check list to go home-maybe Saturday or Sunday!

We had to take a CPR class-check

get all her tubes out-check

eat on her own- check

gain or at least maintain her current weight- check

pass the car seat test-check

watch an orientation video- not yet

spend the night at the hospital with her,

 while they observe us through the night-not yet

Her car seat test could be done once she was tube free, so this afternoon we did that.

They just plop her in her car seat for 90 minutes and observe her heart rate and

O2 levels- to make sure she can tolerate sitting up at that angle.

She looks so tiny in that seat!! 

She didn't fuss a bit and passed the test with flying colors!

So we are one step closer to going home!

HOORAY!!!!

the last tube comes out!

Stylin' in my car seat

Don't I look so little in here?

I love my car seat-with the leopard trim

that Mommy picked just for me!

Holding Her!

In the PNICU the nurses are a little more relaxed and you can actually let 

other people hold your baby. YIPPEEEE!!!!

We had decided to keep it to Grandparents only-just to keep it simple and fewer germs

(still a wee bit paraynoid)

I happen to ask about others holding her while Randy's dad (Pa Pa) was in

the room with me-he looked at me and said

"Give me that baby, before Cara Faye (Randy's mom) gets in here"

 If you will notice in his picture he has a HUGE grin on his face-he was thrilled to be the

first grandparent with his hands on our girl. :)

Then of course was  Ma Ma, Grandmom, G-Mom, &  G-Dad!

All equally as happy to snuggle up to her.

I have to say, that it was a precious moment to see each one hold her and love on her

they have waited so long.

However-the most precious to me, was to have my "Big One" hold my 

"Tiny One" and have our first real family picture.

We have dreamed of this moment and talked about it so much, it was 

hard for me to wrap my brain around it as it was happening.

Anyway-thanks for letting us share these milestones in our lives!

Pa Pa

Ma Ma

Grandmom

G-Mom & G-Dad

Movin' on Up!

We FINALLY made it around the corner to our new room!

It is called the PNICU (Progressive NICU). They are calling Sterling

a "feeder and grower" It means just that....they are only keeping her to 

teach her to feed  and make sure that she grows. 

The mood in this room is a little lighter...the babies here aren't nearly as sick as they

are in the NICU. Here, each nurse has at least 3 babies to look after, and Sterling is baby #3-

meaning, she needs very little "looking after" so she is an easy patient. 

YAY STERLING!!!!!

Right now she just has the one feeding tube in. They are starting her on a bottle

(courtesy of mommy pumping-which is a WHOLE other ordeal, that I will not go into....just let me say quickly, I NEVER had any intention of nursing in ANY form or fashion, but

because she was so sick I am now pumping-hate it. Now, moving on.. :)

She has 30 minutes to eat what she can then the rest of it is given to her through the feeding tube. She isn't getting the hang of it just yet, but I know her to be not only beautiful, but also brilliant, so it won't be too long before she has it down on her own. 

More pics and updates to come from our new home in the PNICU!

isn't she so cute? 

(please disregard the large circles under Mommy's eyes)

Night Night little one!

Big Girl Bed!!!

Sterling was moved out of her little incubator to a Big Girl Crib! 

This is just one more step in the right direction!

She is doing much better-no tubes in her chest and we are waiting for a spot

in the Progressive NICU-it's still ICU, but not as critical as the NICU. 

We are 3rd or 4th on the list, so hopefully in the next day or so we will have 

a new address around the corner!

(oops you caught us with out a bow)

Our Arms are Full and Our Hearts are Fuller

(isn't fuller a word?)

Yesterday we finally got to hold her! They removed her right drainage tube from her lung and that opened the door for us to yank her out of that bed and love on her. I wish I had been there when Randy first held her- look at the smile on his face (thank you to the nurse who captured that moment for me). I too was beside myself. It almost felt odd to actually have her in my arms.

They also had us start trying to feed her with a bottle. She is starting to get the hang of it. They let us try to bottle feed her for 30 minutes and then whatever she hasn't finished, goes into her feeding tube. She is starting to suck and swallow better and each feeding she seems to get a little more down.

The removal of all tubes (except the feeding one) also allowed me to dress her! YAY!!!! We picked a sweet little gown that made it easy for them to still check her and of course a fresh new bow. I am still having a hard time believing that I am actually dressing my own little girl. She looked darling- and of course we love that everyone stops by her bed to see what new bow she is wearing!

Just before we left last night she pulled her feeding tube out of her nose and then threw a HUGE fit when they tried to get it back in (i would too by the way). After about 10 minutes of shoving the darn thing up her nose, they had to put it back down her throat- which also ticked her off royally (she has the temper of her Daddy). She got so worked up that she threw everything up-which resulted in us loosing our clothing privileges for now. So no clothes and no bow- :( See what happens when you don't cooperate?

We are still on the path to healthy, we just need a few more days to get evened out. Will keep you posted on our progress. Again...thank you for your love and prayers!

This is what the first picture without all the mess on her face-

 just a little O2 and the feeding tube

This is what she looks like with nuthin' on. No tubes, no tape, no bow, no clothes.

She looks like a completely different baby.

This is our first outfit. Also this is before she threw up all over it. :)

Pretty sweet, if I do say so myself!

Last night Randy and I took a break from the hospital to be together and go to our church worship service. (keystonechurch.com). We were in great need of a little "fill up" Brandon started a new series entitled "Me, Myself, & I"  It is about how we are wired as humans to be selfish. I find that very true in myself as I am sure all of us do. 

The jewel that I took from church last night though was this...We are called to be selfless and serve each other just as Christ served. At the last supper He served his disciples by getting on his hands and knees and washing their feet. This was a picture of selfless serving, of love for his closest friends. We as His people are to do the same. We are to use the talents and gifts that He has created and purposely planted in each of us to serve one another when there is a need and build each other up when someone needs extra love.

We have been honored, humbled, blessed, and touched by the selflessness that we have witnessed and received this week. From the doctors and nurses, to our family and friends, strangers at the hospital and online, and new neighbors who we have yet to even meet. You have dropped everything for us, gone out of your way to call, come to our side in the middle of the night, cry with us, bring food, magazines, clothes, gifts, done laundry, taken care of our dog, sent flowers & cards, prayed and prayed and prayed,and just sat at our feet and ask "What can I do for you?" You have truly served us and our loving God this week. 

We have always known that we were loved and never once questioned how deep that love flows- but to witness it in such a beautiful way, has changed us forever. We are bound to each of you in our hearts and love you.

Yes, we are a selfish people, but this has been an act of obedience and a witness to the beauty in all of us too. Thank you thank you thank you!

~randy, tomi, chandler garrett, sterling, and zoey